[Sometimes you're confident even in murder camp -- for many of them, it's because they hadn't been able to face up to the reality yet. For others, it's because they've been through what they imagined was worse, until they found out exactly how much worse this was. And still others -- you fake it till you make it.

Lenka's still not sure which of the categories (if not all) he himself falls into, but he remembers Boa the first week, training through everything (and perhaps every week after, the same, just like many of the rest of them). Keep moving, so you don't have time to examine the cracks too hard.]

Then be afraid. Fear lets you know how to survive. You just have to know what to be afraid of, and what to use against the fear. Even if you don't know what to do, that's enough for now.