[...Oh. She had said something about throwing his life away, hadn't she? He hadn't really considered that to be related in any way, since. Everybody always complains to him about that. And why should she care, anyhow? It's not like him dying would hurt her in any way, right?]
If self-sacrifice is the problem... I don't know if I can fix that.
[It's not like he doesn't know he's messed up. He knows the way he thinks is stupid and useless and wrong, that he should just get over it. But he can't. Because... if he can't give his life to save someone else, what's the point in him being alive at all? If he can't become a hero like Kiritsugu, why did he survive the fire? Why did he make it when those kids in the basement didn't?
This foolish, pointless ideal is all he has. It's already been battered by every day at this camp, maybe broken for good after today, but he still has to cling to it. If he doesn't, he won't be able to keep going.]
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If self-sacrifice is the problem... I don't know if I can fix that.
[It's not like he doesn't know he's messed up. He knows the way he thinks is stupid and useless and wrong, that he should just get over it. But he can't. Because... if he can't give his life to save someone else, what's the point in him being alive at all? If he can't become a hero like Kiritsugu, why did he survive the fire? Why did he make it when those kids in the basement didn't?
This foolish, pointless ideal is all he has. It's already been battered by every day at this camp, maybe broken for good after today, but he still has to cling to it. If he doesn't, he won't be able to keep going.]
I'll... I'll try the curry.