[Eddie shakes his head before letting his hands fall]

No... Maybe... I don't fucking know. It's just...

[He looks up at Boa. Part of him feels like he shouldn't talk about this, that the other boy will just think he's crazy. But all of this is fucking crazy. He sighs.]

I keep feeling like I've had to kill something before. Or at least, that I really wanted to. But it's like trying to remember a nightmare...