[You don't offer to die for someone else if you aren't a little broken in some way.
Much less multiple times, over a period of weeks on end, and enough of them are broken in similar ways that you'd have to wonder about it without an understanding of it -- and Lenka does understand, because while none of them have ever faced anything quite like this camp...
Sometimes you survive, because other people don't. You survive in their place, and take them up as your reason to keep going, and the load gets heavier and heavier and heavier and harder to justify.]
Use it in a different way. I think there are things here that just sacrificing yourself won't solve. [and he thinks Shirou knows that but... all the same] She asked me to promise, you know. Red. I promised her I wouldn't make her kill me.
[It's one of the reasons -- sometimes the only reason -- he hasn't offered again, even when he wanted to each week, every time, last week-- Because she'd asked him to. Given him an excuse to be here, because that's what it is, of course.
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[You don't offer to die for someone else if you aren't a little broken in some way.
Much less multiple times, over a period of weeks on end, and enough of them are broken in similar ways that you'd have to wonder about it without an understanding of it -- and Lenka does understand, because while none of them have ever faced anything quite like this camp...
Sometimes you survive, because other people don't. You survive in their place, and take them up as your reason to keep going, and the load gets heavier and heavier and heavier and harder to justify.]
Use it in a different way. I think there are things here that just sacrificing yourself won't solve. [and he thinks Shirou knows that but... all the same] She asked me to promise, you know. Red. I promised her I wouldn't make her kill me.
[It's one of the reasons -- sometimes the only reason -- he hasn't offered again, even when he wanted to each week, every time, last week-- Because she'd asked him to. Given him an excuse to be here, because that's what it is, of course.
He's still searching for the real reason.]