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Utsugi "May the Vores Be With You" Lenka ([personal profile] soylentprotag) wrote in [community profile] camppetoskey2018-07-07 03:11 pm

After(life) Party--

[Lenka isn't talking much, though he spends most of the time after the execution either expressionless or frowning, moving among the ones still left at the campfire to check on people and try to make sure none of them are trying to either follow Boa or possibly throw literal or metaphorical stones at each other. Probably everyone's too exhausted for any of that at this point.

At some point he disappears for a little bit and comes back with an entire table and supplies -- not from the kitchen, but from the stash he'd accumulated in Cabin 2. It's not much, but it feels better than eating anything from the kitchen right now. Nobody wants that.

There's just some crackers and fruit snacks and some cheese with them. A few baggies to take them to go since most people aren't hungry right this moment. Once that's set out, he'll idle at one end of the table, staring out into the lake.]
diesifkilled: in the world (the ocean is one of the biggest lakes)

[personal profile] diesifkilled 2018-07-09 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
She asked you...

[It's like a switch flips in his head, hard enough that it's almost a physical sensation, and for a moment he stupidly wonders if Lenka just made him activate his magic circuit with words alone.

But it's not mana that's churning in his brain now, it's a sudden realisation.
]

I... never really thought about her feelings at all, did I? I thought I did, but...

[It's not like he's never realised that his death would hurt other people. It's why he had to hold back last week, to protect Usagi's feelings. But suddenly, for some reason the way he's hearing it now makes him actually believe it.]

I... I think I get it now. At least a little. [It's just a tiny flicker of a reason to keep going, but it's more than he's had for a while.]
diesifkilled: i would just live there. (honestly if i got stuck under a snowdrif)

[personal profile] diesifkilled 2018-07-12 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
...Yeah. She deserves better than this. Everyone here does.

[No one should have to come to this camp and be sacrificed in such a ridiculous ritual, but... no one should have to oversee it either.]

I just hope we can change it.