Updating my notes with the stuff Ren shared yesterday. I talked to Kirijo about it, too. I ... it helped.

[he sucks in a deep breath]

When I was talking to Lenka, he ... helped me figure out something. As long as I think about what we know? Like, details, and facts, and stuff? It's easier to handle the shit that happens.

I mean - it still sucks. A lot. But ... it sucks less to think we can find a plan. Does that make any sense to you? I mean - I feel almost like an asshole saying it that way. But ... I feel okay enough that I might even go try to talk to Boa.

[he's sucking it up, because ...]

Because he's still in there. Somewhere. And I need to tell him I'm sorry.